20 de Julho de 2009 - 3:59
I (sure) am.
The room was a set up.
Every detail smelled like bad intention. The supermarket green apple candle; the old yellow, fish printed, bed sheet covering the window; the new quilt cover; and the side lamp which was now fixed with a band-aid.
He lit the candle, turned off the light - and turned on the cd player, from where Barry White’s voice came out – just like a hot caramel syrup to that cheap, but yet delicious, vanilla ice-cream scenario I was about to fall into.
I knew I shouldn’t - but it was hopeless.
I knew we had to trust one another again.
But I didn’t mean that poor little trust that says ‘I love you, you love me’ anymore.
I meant the kind of trust that just makes you sure.

Again I could smell the apple scent from the candles.
As said, the evidence was everywhere.
I smiled, as in ‘I know what you have prepared’.
And I asked:
- Are you sure about that?
maria sanz martins
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